Long Time No See

It's been a really long time since I post in this damned blog (haha LOL). I guess I'll post a little bit often because I've had many things that are really something, and maybe I could only post it, because i'm a bit too shy to talk about it. So, here we go:

2 weeks ago, I've started a relationship with someone. FYI, I've only met this girl once and, suddenly it happened. It went really nice, even though occasionally I was pretty not sure about all of this, it happens really too fast, but I was happy, and so be it. Suddenly (sounds like The Beatles song isn't it?), on last Friday I guess, she started to change, she was being cold. I've asked about what happened to her, but she wasn't want to tell me about it, so I could only being patient and try to calmed her, it worked..that time. It was continued until yesterday Sunday, 25th of March, I've found out about what was bugging her. We talked (via SMS) until 1.30 a.m. last night (it's really long, eh?). Yes, I've found out that she was still like my friend, and she felt guilty because of it, she said that she really confused, and felt really being such an evil to me who was really kind to her (she told me that). And it came up to a decision, she decided to let go of me and not to choose between me and my friend (who she still like). I cried (it's been a really long time since the last time I cried). I felt doomed. It really hurts, but as I always said since a long time, as long as she happy, then so be it. I let go of her, even though I'm not really sure about it, 'cause I'm still really love her. I'm really hope that we can get back together, so I'll wait until she can forget my friend.