And The Sky Rumbled

It's a story started from the last night, maybe from the last Wednesday night. Yes, it's 11 April, and it means it's been a month since I started this relationship with her. I'm happy, but maybe that day is also the beginning of everything that happened until today. It's only a guess, but i feel that it's started when her friend asked her about her confidence on starting a new relationship when she still can't forget her ex, she often cried about him (i don't know who is him actually, but i know he hurt her really bad). Yes, she started to remember her ex, and it was the beginning because after that she getting sad and felt that she was playing with my feeling and only made me an escape for her. Well, actually i don't really care about that, i don't really care if she was only made me an escape, maybe i've been blinded, but i don't care. Yes it's the beginning of this story. After that, I really felt that it was done, like the other problems we had past through, but it's exactly the opposite. Yes, on the 12 April it's started again. This time, I guess it was started when i left her because i'm a bit busy that time, i wasn't text her for about 30 minutes and voila her mood has ruined. Yeah, I know the sign of her mood being ruined, she answer with a really short answer and so on. And after that I began to search why her mood was ruined and bla bla bla. Thing that made me to think is, she asked me to get mad on her. At first, I can't but in the last, I get lost of my control. I get mad, I really get mad to her because of her childishness, she always wanted to be "a grown up person" but her attitude wasn't show even a single blink about it. In a short words, I get mad, and she wasn't expect that i'm going to be mad like that. In my mind, I have this thought that she maybe scared of my anger or felt that i was too uncontrolled, so the conclusion was she said that we're not know each other really well, and she asked to start over, she asked to return to when we're getting know each other, just like before we started this relationship. I can't do that, it's obvious. But she insisted, for the best of us, she said. And my protection was broke down, and sadly I accepted that. Things that sadden me more is when she told me to forget about her, everything, as she tried to forget about me also. I can't just forget her, but she seemed not care about it, she insisted to be alone for now, and I really felt that there is no future anymore for us, there will be no more relationship between us, we'll start over, and ended up as friend, just friend nothing more. And yes, that night, the sky rumbled, only once, and that's the sign of the end.